Happy Anniversary!!

Today marks the one year anniversary since my official date of divorce. (I actually forgot until just a couple of days ago...) I wanted to take a moment to remember all the changes that have happened in my life over the last year.

• First of all, I am taking control of my finances. I love that I am in control of the spending and the saving and the paying of the bills (which now get paid on time all the time). Because I am in charge of the budget I have been able to pay down a humongous chunk of the debt Eric left me with.

• I am independent. I can go where I want, when I want without having to check with anybody. (I better be careful on that one though, because I might be enjoying independence a little too much.) I even got to take a trip to see Karen last spring for her birthday.

• I can hold my head up high at church again. I am no longer afraid of what people will think of me. I know they know I struggle, but now I know they love me anyway. I have been so blessed throughout this last year as I've come closer to my Heavenly Father and have felt His love.

• I have rejoined the singles and though I still struggle with it, I am overcoming my shyness. I will always be quiet, but I am learning to socialize and make friends. I've even managed to initiate a few conversations.... ;)

• I went on a date. It was a perfect lesson on how a date should go. Though I am not ready to be interested in a guy (nor am I ready for a guy to be interested in me), I discovered that dating can be fun, and I now know exactly how I expect to be treated.

And now, to continue the changes in my life, I am applying to BYU, but whether or not I am accepted, I'll be heading to Provo late this spring or early this summer. I'm going to finish my education (because I can) even if it kills me!! And though it is terrifying, I am excited to go to a new place and meet new people.


And to the next year, I say, BRING IT ON!!!