I know I said I'd post a pic of my foot. Sorry I haven't gotten around to it. I will add it to the previous post when I have more time.
Speaking of my foot, it is already much better. I finally got released back to full duty at work which means I can put my full weight on my foot and even wear normal shoes. Except.... my injury has left a nasty scar. I've only been back to normal shoes for a few days, and I've been wearing the type of sensible, comfy, but kind of ugly shoe that would keep the scar covered and give my foot the support it needs. But I need to go back to my cute shoes. There are so many outfits that I just cannot where my ugly shoes with. I know I need to invest in Mederma, and I will. But I think the scar will only fade. It is permanent. My cute shoes will not cover the scar. Maybe the church will make and exception and let me get a tattoo to cover it?? JUST KIDDING!!!!
Wedding plans... Uh that would be a big fat nothing. We have NOTHING ready. I have my dress and shoes but I don't start fittings for another month. I am bummed that I have not received my letter from the church yet. Since I have been married before, I have to have my sealing to my former husband cancelled before I can be sealed to Adam. For those of you who are not LDS, think of a Catholic Anullment. Until I have that letter, I cannot set a firm wedding date. Which means I cannot send invitations or book a church for a reception or make most of the plans brides two months out from a wedding usually have finished already. We don't even have engagement pics yet and with our busy schedules I am beginning to think we will have to do without.
I am frustrated. And hurt. And coming in to the holiday season I know the First Presidency is super busy and it will only push back their reply further. I understand this and accept it as normal and natural. But it is no less frustrating. It makes running away for an elopement very tempting. But I want so much to teach my children about how important the temple is. I want them to know what it means to be sealed forever. I want my family to be eternal. How can I teach my children the importance of a temple marriage if I myself did not wait?
We may have to have a civil ceremony and be sealed later. It really all depends on whether or not we get that letter. My non LDS friends are less than understanding and it is difficult for me to explain why I need to wait for this letter. Some of them are using this as an example of the negativities of being Mormon, and this hurts. I want them to understand how much I love my Heavenly Father and how much I want to do as he has asked. But I have to confess my patience is wearing thin. Some days I am excited to open my mailbox since I KNOW the letter has arrived only to open it to a stack of advertisements and bills. Other days, I don't even bother going to the mailbox since I KNOW the letter is NEVER coming. (I'm a bit of a drama queen apparently).
I am trying to have faith. I know that the Lord will do what is best for me. I know my Heavenly Father will do things in his time because he knows better than I do. I know he loves me and wants me to be happy.
Everyone says the letter is right around the corner and I should have it any day now.
We'll see I guess...
5 comments:
I can only imagine how frustrating it would be to wait on a letter like that. But honestly- (and please take no offense to this!) I love what you said about showing your children the importance of having a temple marriage and being sealed, but think about Adam- how hard he has worked to ensure he is worthy of a temple marriage- all because he loves you and he loves his Heavenly Father. I really think he deserves a temple marriage, not a civil and then be sealed later. I am sure your Bishop will advise you as you go along and I would heed his councel, and if he advised a civil ceremony since its taking too long I would accept that, but to make the decision on your own would sadden me because as a family all we have wanted for Adam is to be married in the temple. We consistently pray that the first presidency will reply promptly so that you guys can move forward with your life together.
oh marilyn! i bet that is so stressful! but be patient! the lord has certainly not forgotten you! you can do this!! the waiting will for sure pay off in the end! thanks for updating!
Sorry, I know you must be anxious and frustrated about getting the letter about your sealing. It will be worth waiting for. It would be sad to see you both getting married civily. My niece and her husband had to wait a year to get married, because he was a new member: it was very hard, but its what we do to be obedient and to have all the blessings we deserve.
It's here!
And I appreciate very much the blessings of being sealed in the temple; I know you both will be blessed very much because of it.
But, engagements are hard, so I'm glad you don't have to wait anymore!!
Thank you for being a faithful daughter. I made the choice to be married in the temple because I sought for the blessings of having my children born in the covenant. I am grateful that you seek these blessings, too.
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